
I always knew I have a great family and the best friends I could ever
wish for. But as I left Germany I left them as well. And with leaving
them behind I left a part of myself at home. I was afraid that
especially in this situation there wouldn’t be people to fill this
empty space. But I met wonderful kind and open people. And it is only
a few weeks since I arrived in my new life. Don’t get me wrong it
is still hard to be away from home when everything is so uncertain
even more than at a “normal” volunteering experience. Especially
when I videocall my friends or my family and I see how everything
there is still the same, just without me.
And
because of these special surroundings I found myself in a rather
overwhelming situation when Marco from Trento asked me to call him
immediately because of an emergency while I was having breakfast with
my mom in Bolzano 2 hours before I was supposed to move into my new
apartment into my new life. In this emergency call I had with Marco
he explained to me that I have to come to Trento instead of Bolzano
for 5 days because my flat wasn’t ready to be moved into yet.
Therefor I packed all my things and got back into the car for a long
45 minute drive to my new home for the next few days. You can imagine
that I felt along uncertainty many other different and confusing
things. Nobody could really tell me what was happening, or if they
did tell me I wasn’t really able to process it, so it seemed like
everybody left me purposely in the dark.
But
as soon as I arrived in Trento and I met the wonderful girls – my
roommates on time- I felt relieved. My feelings changed I wasn’t
bothered anymore that nothing turned out as I expected it to be. It
was almost fate that even at this situation that I was able to meet
these extraordinary girls I hope I can see soon again. They made me
feel less alone, less uncertain, they gave me safety in a situation I
felt lost. Because I knew and still know that I can bother them at
all times with even the smallest of all problems and they will help
me with welcoming arms.
The
time in Trento moved by faster than I expected and I drove back to
Bolzano with a car full of my belongings. Let me tell you it is the
strangest thing to see that your life can fit into one little Italien
family car. Anyhow we did arrive safe and sound in Bolzano in another
new flat and another new city with more new people to meet. I thought
that I couldn’t have more good luck like in Trento meeting amazing
people. But I was wrong. Because fast I learned that you don’t need
many people to not feel alone but few people you feel safe around and
know they have your back.
Please
don’t get me wrong of course I felt alone or strange sometimes. I
do miss going out with my best friends or just chilling at home
together. I missed the ability to just walk over the hill and being
at my boyfriends. Or taking one bus and being at my cousins. Or
crossing the garden and seeing my grandparents. Or living with my
sisters and parents in one house always close to each other. I don’t
have that luxury anymore. But surprisingly a little bit of home came
to Italy because when you hear German around every corner you don’t
feel so helpless. There is always a good chance that the lady in the
supermarket not only understands your wild gestures but maybe even
understands what you mean when you ask: “Avete…Äh,,,la Klopapier
(toiletpaper)?”.
Hopefully
I didn’t scare you away from going away from home alone. Even if it
seemed at first like it is going to be a disaster. Now I am so happy
that nothing worked out as planned. Because that is when the best
things happen in unexpected situations right? Even the first five
days I wasn’t allowed to go to work because I wasn’t confirmed
negative yet. In the end I am happy that I had more or less a little
extra vacation where I got to explore my neighbourhood and making
myself comfortable in this new situation. So be brave and do not
scare away from new uncertain situations (like now) maybe something
great will happen.
Leah Maisenbacher